So this is my first attempt at blogging. I held out for as long as I possibly could even though now blogs are now passée. But hopefully, I can keep up with this and maybe it'll even be therapeutic as well.
So I work in a town in Massachusetts at a supermarket. And I just wanna know what the fuck posseses people to go shopping a half an hour before the store closes. I mean, seriously, it's a Friday fucking night. You know the store will be open tomorrow but something in their mongoloid brain clicks and they think to themselves "it's Friday, I ain't got shit to do......LET'S GO GET SOME GROCERIES!!!!!" Fuck them.
So I've got this crush. I thought at age 34, I'd be totally over crushing on women. Considering I'm not what most women look for. 99% is probably my looks. I'm a big guy, I know this. But if you judge me on that alone, that is a totally bullshit way to pick and choose someone. And I always have to laugh when they do get to know the real me...the guy that wants to make you laugh, the guy that will listen to you vent and offer advice on what ails you, the guy that will pay you compliments with a poetic flourish that seems out of place in this day and age where the extent of a guys compliments are "Yo! You look so bangin'!" or talking to his friends "Oh damn! That chick is so fucking hot! Holy shit!". I've always tried to be that guy that would break himself to make you the center of his universe. I try so damn hard and I always seem to fall short, or I'm going over the top and it seems to put them off. All I ask for is the down to earth woman that doesn't need to be high maintenance, shows a modicum of intelligence to hold a conversation about anything...books, music, politics, art, poetry or anything else that comes to mind.
But I digress. This woman I'm crushing is amazing. She's independent, comes across as well educated and is just...amazing. She has me at a loss for words just looking at her pictures. She has blue eyes that you could stare into for hours. Eyes you could get lost in and even though, you know the way out, you don't care and wanna stay lost. Has one hell of a singing voice and you'd swear it was an angel singing just for you. She's very down to earth and just awesome. Now you might say "Jesus! This woman sounds amazing! Go after her!" But there are problems: 1-I'm shy as hell. I can't just walk up to a person and strike up a conversation. I have to get you know you before I come out of my shell and 2- She lives on the other side of the country from me. Sucks for me, I know.
Well, I think I've poured out enough of myself tonight. Ta ta.
MHB
